illogical

Grace is so foreign to me. I’ve been raised in communities that talk about grace over and over, yet the concept is still absurd. What do I have to do? How do I pay for forgiveness? And you’re telling me that I can’t pay for it? That there is nothing I can do? That I receive and that’s it? I can’t believe it. With the offering sitting before me, I stare at it dumbly, and choose to see anything else other than the Grace. And when Christ presses in on me and helps me to experience it magically, mysteriously, through my emotions… then I see the gift for what it is and I am overwhelmed, not understanding how God could do that for me and why. ‘His love’, someone will say. Well duh! Then while I experience the love of The Father… the concept is still foreign to me.

painting, Matt Leblanc

i can't hear you, i can't hear you

i keep seeing these commercials for 'espnboston.com'. everyday for the last week (i don't have tv, we've been at my parent's a lot since my sister and her husband moved here) i've been seeing these commercials on espn about their new website which caters to boston fans. but everytime i go there, the friggin' site says... 'coming soon'.

THAT PISSES ME OFF.

don't advertise it if it isn't there. or say... 'hey, real soon we'll have this new site up'. but don't advertise it as if it's there, and then try to hype me up for it by making me wait. you'll just push me one step closer to never going out of principle alone.